Well I guess I really haven’t talked much about this pregnancy. It’s my fourth pregnancy so I feel like I’m not quite sure if there is anything I can add that I haven’t already said about my previous 3 pregnancies. This one has been slightly different. I definitely have had a few different and pretty awful symptoms that I have never experienced before. Amazing how each pregnancy can be different. I have had all the normal pregnancy symptoms. Nausea in the first trimester, heartburn in the second, cramping legs in the third. Yep, check, check and check. All have been slightly worse than any of the other pregnancies. Especially the heartburn. Oh the heartburn, has been awful acid reflux burning radiating through my back into my chest. AWFUL! So awful, that I can truly say “I’m happy we are done.” This is definitely our last baby, my last pregnancy ever. (Unless I ever live in a state that allows surrogacy, I would love to give someone this gift.) There was one point where I loved being pregnant, up until my fourth pregnancy. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate it. It’s really not that bad. For me anyway. Yeah I have some shitty and painful symptoms that make me want to cry and sometimes gross me out. But I can make humans and not everyone gets to do that, I have been blessed with a beautiful amazing gift and I’m pretty darn good at it. I mean look at the three I have already made, I’m pretty proud to say they are mine. Gorgeous, healthy, happy. God has truly blessed us and I’m so thankful for that and everyday I get to spend with them, (even when I want to run away or lock myself in the bathroom) and I get to have one more! Another beautiful child, who I can only hope and pray is as perfect and healthy as my first three. So yes, I’m a little sad I will never experience this again, never have a little one just to myself, feeling all his kicks and movements and hiccups. But to be honest I’m not sure how much more my body or sanity could handle!
I’m just starting to get into maternity clothes, Yes I know. I’m tiny. Wow, haven’t heard that one before! To be completely honest it’s pretty annoying when people ask if the baby is okay, unhealthy or if my doctor is concerned. Yes baby is great, no not unhealthy but thanks for making me think this could be a possibility, and no my doctor is not concerned. This is my fourth child, every pregnancy has been the same size wise for me and my doctor also measures me each pregnancy and guess what? I measure right now at 30 weeks and some days. And that’s exactly how far along I am. Anyhow, end rant on people talking about my size! Begin, I HATE maternity clothes. I have always had a hard time finding jeans normally so maternity jeans are a pain in the butt to find. They are more comfortable at times. But pulling them up all day because the bum is saggy or finding a pair long enough for my legs is no fun. And the fact that I will only be in them for 10 weeks at the most is ridiculous given the cost of maternity clothing is outrageous. I will say though, I love the shirts with nice little ruche action on the sides that do hide my love handles, cause even though my belly is small I have gained like 21 pounds already and I do have a little love handlage going on there so I’m down with those tops. And thank goodness it’s fall cause oversize sweaters that are not maternity are so nice to wear and I don’t feel as bad dropping money on clothes I can actually wear later.
So all that being said, I will have a baby in about 10 weeks or less! YAY, I cannot wait to see this kid and hold him and snuggle him up! I also love nursing, it’s such an amazing bond and I’m really looking forward to snuggling and nurturing my baby boy.